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What I would have done differently
January 6, 2009 - Cheryl Clarke
Had I known my mother would be dead before New Year's, I would have:
Not complained when I had to take her to the store once a week. I wish I could have one more trip to WalMart with her, just one, so I could enjoy it, instead of resenting the fact that I was saddled with the responsibility of my parents while my siblings were all off living their own lives.
Told her I loved her more, and showed her by doing more things for her like, taking her to breakfast, cleaning her house, and making more food for her that I knew she liked but couldn't make anymore because she was too weak.
Enjoyed her company more even when I felt like I didn't really have the time, by going down to see her more often and just talking on the phone with her more, I miss that most of all, hearing her voice on the other end of the phone line! How I wish I could call her up right now and just talk about nothing.
Appreciated the things she did for me and I really wish I had told her so more often. I know she knew that I loved her, but she may not have known that I really did understand her and appreciate what she did for me as a mom, grandma and almost a great grandma to my granddaughter who is soon to be born. I wish little Julia Anne Clarke could meet her wonderful great grandma, but she just couldn't hold on long enough.The cancer took her away from us too soon.
Now I can only miss her, because she is gone, and I don't have her anymore. She was my best friend on this earth and the only one who truly understood me and loved me as no one else could. My Mom, may she rest in peace.
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